zombie days

I am so damned tired. Keep running, running, running from myself, from the problem, only to be confronted with it again. It's unavoidable.
I feel fully. I can never only partially feel a single emotion, and i only feel one emotion at one time. But that fervancy gets tiring. I'm done. Don't care.
I love him, but that's unavoidable. But i don't have to feel it to the degree i do. I am now in perpetual sleep. I can be roused, I'm not dead, but the zombie like motions have the majority of control.
I am tired of loving you.
I want to love you as you love me...not at all.