6 months later

and we spoke.

randomly.

after i wrote my previous blog.

I couldn't make this stuff up.

But now that i know he wants me...do i want him?

He is the same person i remember.

But maybe that's the things. We were young, we still are young.

I don't want to know if this will work or not. I have patience and trust now, i don't need to know those answers just yet, i can wait.

I want to know not can this work, but should this work. Should him and I be together? Are we really as well matched as i believed?

Well...We're startinging this all over again, arn't we? Completely from the beginging, and only time will tell...

And oh...what about the other guy? The one i had used to try to make me forget the one i loved? Well, I learned very quickly on that that would never work. But I'm glad we happened. I learned a lot about myself from that experince, a lot about what i want in a relationship, what i want in a man, and the person i want to be while in a relationship.

All in all, despite the few remaining nagging questions, i am happy where i am at in my life. I've got a long way to go, but I'm still learning. I'll keep you updated :)

UPDATE:

What my best friend said to me on the subject-

you just said yourself that you love him. as long as you know that truth (don't even really have t ofeel it, although you will) as long as you KNOW that you don't have to so much "care" like emotions and such are transient as are thoughts. but love is a choice that influences everything else. if you've chosen to love him everything will be the way it's supposed to according to God's plan